Gas Tanks and Dog Bites

Okay...anyone have the kind of car that shows you have lets say "150 miles  till  E" or at least shows you how much you got left till your car "breaksdown" ?
Or you hear a growl coming from a dog before he loses it on you?
Can you imagine if you had a countdown till you "breakdown" or "lose it?
Can you imagine if it said "okay Karen, you have 10 sucky days left before you break down "-or drop off the kids off  someplace safe cause your about to lose it in ...3....2...1!
THAT WOULD BE GREAT!
BUT........
Lets say this..You DONT have a gas gage that shows you how close you are to breakin down or the dog DOESNT growl - just remains silent  and out of nowhere loses it  on you.
You would have NO idea when your world is breaking down or losing it....... THATS what im talkin about.

Obviously everyone has their bad days, weeks, months (should I go on?) but when there is no warning  or reason at that moment before you do, it is a scary thing.
Happened to me in August..stress and depression and all I went thru the past 6 months decided to hit me and have a party on August 7th. Everything went double vision, tremors and other physical stuff all happened to me within 20 minutes. I could have sworn I was having a stroke. Thankfully Jimmy was there and he held me thru it- yes Im getting personal about my life ( Thats me..open book.)
Then the crying spells started. Id cry cause I didnt know what to make for dinner that nite (yes ya'll I cook..shut up) Then mind started to go- I would seriously forget the kid in the car, hold a cereal box and wonder why?
 I  knew something was wrong . After a hundred appts at diff doctors (Im exaggerating- but seriously felt like 100 appts).. they came up with severe depression
Wait a minute..I crack jokes??? ....Im a happy person? ...I have  Christs  peace and comfort & I turn to him?  If I was THAT depressed, wouldnt I just lay in bed  and eat Ho-Ho's? Nah- actually anxiety masks itself with depression. Ya see, I had no warning,,,,My problem was taking care of the problems in the past, then be done with them..move on.. and if any of you know me well, then you know all that has happened in my life the past 3 years...CONSTANT CHAOS!
Yeah-I took care of all the problems right then, but shoved the incident and emotions that I shouldve gone thru  in the back of my mind... & I would   put on a happy face ..crack a joke or what ever it took to keep on keepin on.Whatever it took for people to see the Karen they knew... I was damaging myself and never knew it.
Long story short, Meds have been switched (I gots me lots of nice perty colored pills!!) , I force myself to go on FB even tho I feel I have so much to do-I gotta take a break ...I force myself  to continue to let my heart and mind come together and write in my journal or when I feel the need, write a blog. I have my good days and bad days... one day Im happy , one day you dont wanna cross my path...but the important thing is I have learned and  am allowing these feeling to come out and deal with them, cause I definetly dont want my gas gage to drop to "E"  or be ripped apart by a dog anymore.    Im coming out of my depression real well, which unfortunetly is now unveiling the anxiwty portion I have to go thru...Its not easy AT ALL But Im  thankful for friends and family who hang in there with me , for the people I cry to when one day im happy cause I have another day..or cry when I cant find my other shoe!
Thanks for takin the time to read this~Remember to take time FOR YOURSELF AS WELL !!
If you wanna comment do so but no negitive comments~world has enough negativity already!
God Bless ~Peaceout!